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  Praise for SONGS FOR THE DEAF

  Songs for the Deaf is a joyful, deranged, endlessly surprising book of stories that defy easy categorization, in addition to the laws of physics (girls “ride air,” aliens plummet from the sky, a basketball-messiah shoots hoops). Fleming's prose is glorious music; his rhythms will get into your bloodstream, and his images will sink into your dreams. Thank you, Burrow Press, for bringing John Fleming's radioactively imaginative stories to us.

  ~Karen Russell, author of Swamplandia! and Vampires in the Lemon Grove

  The range of characters and their concerns is matched by the tonal range, which shifts with aplomb from a certain canny comic zing to simple old sincerity. These stories somehow stay firmly on their tracks through wonderful narrative hairpin turns, the sentences sure in their gait, the language neither timid nor showy, and as with most satisfying stories, it’s hard to tell whether the characters have guided themselves to the serendipitous endings they find, or whether they’ ve been secretly dragged there by the superb skill of the storyteller.

  ~John Brandon, author of A Million Heavens and Citrus County

  All music worth playing is worth playing loud, and the volume on Songs for the Deaf should be turned all the way up. John Henry Fleming riffs on renegade cloud readers, drifters seeking out their long-lost midwives, and random floating girls. In one sublime lick he intones a high-school basketball game as the Lord’s Prayer. I’ ve long admired his work, and this new collection—perfectly in touch with our fantastic times—is well worth blowing out a speaker or two.

  ~Jeff Parker, author of Ovenman and The Taste of Penny

  Copyright © 2014 by John Henry Fleming

  All Rights Reserved.

  Paperback ISBN: 978-0-9849538-5-1

  E-ISBN: 978-0-9849538-6-8

  Book Design: Tina Holmes Craig

  Cover Art: Lesley Silvia

  Author Photo: Lacie Meier

  First Edition. Published by Burrow Press, 2014

  Print: burrowpress.com

  Web: burrowpressreview.com

  Flesh: functionallyliterate.org

  Distributed by Itasca Books

  5120 Cedar Lake Rd.

  Minneapolis, MN 55416

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  The following stories originally appeared, in slightly different versions, in the following magazines and anthologies: “Xenophilia” and “Weighing of the Heart” in The North American Review; “A Charmed Life” in Better: Culture and Lit; “Cloud Reader” in Fourteen Hills; “In the Shadow of the World's Greatest Monument to Love” in Juked; “Coward” in Carve Magazine; “Song for the Deaf” and “Revolutions” in Atticus Review; “The Day of Our Lord’s Triumph (with marginal notes for children)” in Kugelmass; “The General” in McSweeney's; “The Posse” in Mississippi Review; and “Wind and Rain” in Georgetown Review and 100% Pure Florida Fiction.

  for Julie, Hayley, and Ethan

  TABLE of CONTENTS

  Cloud Reader

  A Charmed Life

  The Day of Our Lord's Triumph

  (with Marginal Notes for Children)

  Weighing of the Heart

  A History of War in Three Parts

  Chomolungma

  In the Shadow of the World's Greatest

  Monument to Love

  Xenophilia

  Coward

  Wind and Rain

  Song for the Deaf

  Cloud Reader

  Return visits are easiest at night. In a dark suit and high, stiff collar, he knocks softly on back doors and waits there like a grim windbreak. Sometimes, as now, they expect him. They sent a messenger out to his campsite shortly after he arrived. An urgent matter involving their daughter, and double his usual fee.

  A nervous, withered woman opens the back door for him and leads him down the hall into the small parlor, where the father stands with fists stuffed deep in his pockets. The man neither greets him nor invites him to take a seat. He simply asks him to place a hand on the girl’s belly.

  Curled into a chair, the girl brings her knees up and squeaks through pressed lips.

  He’s not a bad man, the mother tells her as she coaxes her up.

  Last year, he remembers, a brilliant after-snow nimbus revealed a suitable match for the girl in question. A boy with family money, and the father approved. Now, with the girl still two years shy of legal marriage, the family’s urgency can mean only one thing. He doesn’t need clouds to understand that.

  She’s barely showing, offers the father. She’s got a tight women’s underthing to keep it in.

  Will you be needing her to take that off? asks the mother.

  He shakes his head. She’s brought to him, a child and not a child, with a tiny growing secret in her belly. The curls fall away from her small neck, and her shoulders shake in her mother’s arms. Behind a gloss of fear, her stare holds a frank strain of kindness, an understanding her parents lack. His own pain lets him see that more clearly.

  To please the father, he places his unsteady fingertips on the pleated lavender cotton of her bodice and feels the stiff tight corset beneath.

  A tiny thing encased. A growing shame. And it kicks.

  He quickly withdraws his hand. This is beyond my talents, he tells them. I’m only a reader of clouds.

  Tell us something! the father demands. We’ve paid once, and we’ll pay you again. Tell us the sex of it!

  He remembers disliking the father. A small-town banker accustomed to the sway of money. The fact that the last reading met his approval only confirmed that he’d put his money in the right place. Now this, and the man’s sure he can buy his way out of it.

  The girl sobs. Her pale brown ringlets coil and uncoil against her mother’s cheek, while the corset forces out her breath in sharp little gasps.

  He feels the girl’s sense of loss. It occurs to him that if he’d followed another path he might now have a companion like her—daughter, wife, friend. Someone to know him, to keep him company on the rutted roads between towns. Someone to bear witness when he passes.

  What does it matter now? Knowing what might have been is a skill of little value.

  He agrees to one reading. For the daughter’s sake.

  Pleased he’s gotten his way, the father retreats to the kitchen and returns with all the cloud reader has asked and more.

  He refuses the extra. There’s a limit to what he can do, and the fee he’s asked is enough to press him uncomfortably against it.

  Amen, says the mother.

  That night, the wet breath of the plains grasses lifts out of the fields and descends on the town. Its citizens awake to thick gray blankets hanging heavy on the windows, the sunlight all but blocked. Neighbors haunt the streets. The known world diminished overnight, the encroaching mysteries a sudden reminder of the folly of knowing. Nothing, it seems, will ever be certain again.

  The townspeople who cannot talk down the mystery look elsewhere for reassurance. Some stay inside. Others go to the preacher. Some inevitably connect the fog with the cloud reader’s arrival, and the braver of those come to him. In a copse of musclewood between a fallow field and a creek, he’s made a lean-to and a fire pit and strung a line to dry his clothes.

  His visitors have ailments of body, mind, and soul. Some no more than insatiable curiosity. They want to know the curvature of their lives, and the angle of their demise, and if there’s a design, can it not be reworked in their hands?

  He makes no promises. They need only look at the senseless gray obscurity to understand what he’s up against. The world has unlimited powers to conceal and confuse. When the time comes, he can only report what he sees. Meanwhile, he takes deposits, knowing that many will want them back when the fog clears and the need to know
becomes less pressing.

  As one day grays into the next, the slow-circling fog steps cautiously through the denuded limbs of late November. It rises and falls, brightens and darkens, a living thing. He tries to accept its presence as a reminder of his limits.

  When the preacher comes, crackling through the hazy field and into the trees, he wears a black suit and hat. Here’s a switch, says the cloud reader, still in his long white underclothes. He’s seen the preacher on both of his previous visits, but they’ve never spoken till now. Nothing good can come of it. Preachers fight an airy turf war but aren’t so squeamish around muck. They spread rumors about the cloud reader’s upbringing and habits. They incite their congregations.

  He invites the preacher to sit against a tree while he pours him some of the coffee he’s just brewed. The man has a robust torso and thin limbs; if he’s going to do God’s work, he’ll have to do it with his stomach. He lowers himself with a groan and a thick exhale. When he removes his hat, he rubs his hand over his thinning black hair.

  He says, You’re going to be blamed for this, you know.

  Fog’s good for business, the cloud reader admits. The blame I’m used to.

  I mean the boy. The father of the child.

  When the cloud reader doesn’t understand, the preacher makes a sound through his nose as he sips his coffee. The steam of it sweeps over his cheeks. Of course, says the preacher. Without the clouds you’d never know. He’s dead.

  The cloud reader shuts his eyes and sees the limits of his talent. He ought to have expected it.

  Hanged himself last night, the preacher says. I’ve come from the funeral just now.

  He senses the man’s satisfaction in delivering this news and remembers how much he dislikes preachers. In Ames last month there was a man who tried to trick him into helping him with a sale. When the deal fell through, the man complained to his preacher how cloud readers were bad for public morality. A public beating was arranged to prove it. And now this. A boy is dead; there will have to be a reason.

  Are you any less to blame? he asks the preacher.

  The man claws and releases his coffee cup on the ground beside him, one knee raised, black vest unbuttoned. Blasphemy won’t help your case, if it comes to that.

  And you’ll let it, I suppose.

  The preacher says nothing. He doesn’t have to.

  He walks through the bleak obscurity miles beyond the town limits, beyond any hope of an accurate reading, just to comprehend the extent of the gloom. He finds weaknesses in its structure, coincidental separations of its layers glimmering with hope of sunlight. Then nothing. To look up and be denied even a shape! Sometimes the incommunicability of the world rankles him.

  He made a promise to the girl’s family—to the girl, in whose eyes he saw what might have been. He’ll wait for the fog to lift, though he understands what it might cost him. A boy has died. The wound of it will have to be closed.

  He feels his way into town in the black, moonless night, his footsteps cough in the quiet, the pain in his chest shortening his breath. The pain took hold these last few months, and now it grows by the day, a deep pit that swallows life’s convictions. Its searing advances peel back nerves till his hands shake. He knows he doesn’t have much longer before it takes him. He’s not even sure he’ll have the strength to turn his eyes to the clouds when the fog finally clears. And if he dies here, he’ll give the preacher the satisfaction of another Christian burial.

  A lamp still burns at the house. The parents are waiting for him, and the maid lets him in.

  She’s feeling poorly, the mother says. We’ve sent her on to bed.

  Does she know? the cloud reader asks them. About the boy?

  The father stands by the kitchen door, his jaw set and his eyes to the floor. The woman looks to her husband before answering.

  We thought it best not to trouble her. In her condition.

  I wish you’d been more careful, says the father. The whole town knows you’re here.

  I don’t avoid it, he says. I have a living to earn.

  Didn’t I pay you enough? You could have kept to yourself out by the creek. Now the boy’s dead and they’re asking questions.

  The floorboards above them creak and the mother puts her nervous fingers to her lips. She’ll hear.

  She’s bound to soon enough, the father says, folding and unfolding his arms. Tell us something! We’ve paid for it! Tell us the thing’s sex! If you can read clouds, you can read bellies.

  What difference does it make?

  My wife’s gone barren and I don’t have a boy of my own, the man says. He stares at his wife as he would a broken tool. I could send the girl and her mother of to her aunt’s in Minnesota for the winter.

  And if it’s not a boy?

  There’s something can be done. I’ve already been to Ames and asked about it.

  The mother puts her face in her hands and has trouble catching her breath. The father stretches his neck.

  The stupidity of someone like him deciding her fate, he thinks; there will never be an answer for that.

  When the woman breaks into sobs, the father grows furious. Stop this, he tells her. You have only yourself to blame. I knew you were a fake, he says to the cloud reader. A wives’ tale. It was her idea to let you in the first time, and now look! None of this would have happened. If you can’t undo what you’ve done, I’ll find someone who will.

  I made a promise and I’ll do the reading, he says. But not for your sake.

  A tremor rattles the length of his arm. His chest burns. The cloud reader pulls their money out of his pocket and sets it on the desk under the stairs. It’s no good to him anyway.

  What will he do when the fog clears and the clouds have more to say than he cares to know? If the clouds tell him the sex, will he listen? If they tell him the unborn is a girl, will he speak the truth? He’s always believed that his service is to see plainly and disclose all. The moment he intercedes, his talents are compromised, and he can no longer trust himself. If he lies to the father, who’s to say he hasn’t lied to himself? The conviction he’s built his profession on will fall into doubt, his life’s work reduced to a showman’s sham. And yet he cannot let himself be responsible for the death of the unborn child.

  The fog has begun to thin, and he walks through flashes of lightly filtered sunlight painful to his unaccustomed eyes. He avoids looking up, afraid what he might see.

  At night he keeps a small fire burning and sits with his back against a tree, absorbing its mute glow. Behind him, the creek gurgles under black skies. Currents of cool damp air finger through the fire’s dry heat and sweep across his skin like rags. He thinks about the boy. About the world the boy imagined where the birth of a child is worse than death. As he climbed the tree with his rope, what did he feel? Did he think of the kind-eyed girl? Of the child he’d never have, the small face of the future he wouldn’t see? He leapt into an abyss with blind faith in his rope—to stop his fall, to lift him into open skies. What answer could he have hoped for in that infinite muteness?

  The cloud reader might have dozed. The fire has grown quiet. Then he hears noises with bobbing lights attached. They come through the field and stop under the trees, just beyond the dim firelight. A scouting party in the battle of doubt. They don’t have a clear leader, and each seems to wait for the others to talk. Their lamps light chins and noses and ribbons of light in their deep-set eyes.

  A community request? he asks.

  One clears his throat. No request in it. Either leave on your own or come with us.

  He thinks he recognizes the speaker. The man had stood over by the tree one day while his wife sought a reading concerning the health of their twin boys. She brought the cloud reader half a cake as payment. Perhaps he spoke first for fear the cloud reader would bring this up.

  He wouldn’t. Contradictions of faith and deed are the foundation of his profession, his bread and butter. And unlike the preacher, he doesn’t have a thick book to defend himself. He
has only the clouds, who have yet to break a man’s fall.

  I made a promise, he says. I intend to keep it.

  Promises from swindlers don’t stand up, says one.

  You preach lies, says another.

  They bind his hands and push him through the darkness to the city jail, where a deputy stands waiting. They charge him with threatening public morality and disturbing the peace because they can’t legally charge him with making fog or doubt.

  I don’t preach anything, the cloud reader says.

  At night, in the blackness, nothing seems changed except his sleeping arrangements—colder than his campsite, the thin mattress less comfortable than a blanket folded beneath him. He isn’t used to sleeping indoors, and the thick walls seem false in their silence.

  Before the sun grays the sky out his barred window, the room is lit and the preacher let in. He still wears his black suit.

  The cloud reader leans up on an elbow. You dressing for me this time?

  The deputy shuts the bars and the preacher grips the bench as he eases onto it. The silver buttons of his vest catch the lamplight. When he leans forward, his thighs cradle the hang of his wide belly, a grotesque pregnancy that will never reach term.

  The law will run its course, the preacher assures him.

  Looks to me a verdict’s been reached.

  These are well-meaning people. They find their own ways to do what’s right. You ought to have left, but at least you’re safe. Things could have been worse.

  The cloud reader laughs. I’d like to see a copy of your Sunday sermon.

  I know the girl’s father, says the preacher. There’s one thing you can do to save yourself and the child.

  I won’t do it.

  Do you know the kind of man he’s spoken to in Ames? Do you know what he’ll do to the girl and her child? The father’s not a man comfortable in doubt.

  A community trait, I’ve noticed. But I suppose it keeps us both employed.

  Blasphemy again.